"Momma, I was born to never be away from you."

Oof, my heart. 

September 30, 2013

I just can't seem to wrap my mind around the fact that six whole years have passed. Sometimes she seems so grown it stops my heart for a moment.  This kid makes me belly laugh every day. Every single new thing she learns impressed the hell out of me. And her huge heart makes me weepy and so crazy proud I feel my own heart will surely burst. I wonder ten times a day why I got the honor and blessing of being her momma and all I can do is try to not mess up too bad and remember to take a step back and stay out of her way. She makes me nuts with her sass so I'm just going to consider her to be quick-witted. ;) She wallers me out of a king-sized bed and makes me crabby in the mornings. Then I remember how as a baby she would fall asleep with each of her little hands on both of my cheeks and her tiny lips pressed against mine, breathing my breath, legs curled up and toes digging into my belly. I will always see that baby in her sleeping face and body, no matter how many years pass and how big her sassypants - I mean, quick-witted - little self grows to be. Happy Birthday, Finley Kate, you perfectly lovely child of mine. 

"I wish I had a big sister named Isabella who would let me play with her jewels and jump on her bed. And at night I would sneak into her room and steal her bubble gum and close my door and then party all night."

"This one time I had a dream that I was walking to school and there were flowers growing out of my arm. And when I picked them they grew back."

Bedtime whispers: 

"Mom, I have a lil' secret. Sometimes, when you get in the bath, you can put cucumbers on your eyes. But don't tell anyone, because it will freak them out.  It's kind of a mystery."   

This morning's wake up inquiry:

"Mom, when are we going to go to that mu-zimmy place with the giant underpants?  I just really feel like I need to see those giant underpants."

Fin:  I think it would be really awesome to have gray hair. 

Me: Someday you will have. 

Fin:  No, I mean it would be cool if I had all gray hair NOW. When I'm a kid. 

Me:  Um... hrmm. Why do you think so?

Fin:  Because I would be the only one. And I would be like a rock star, baybeh. 

Me:  You are weirdly cool child.